Get Real!

Today, God was showing me something interesting about my behaviour in class and certain spiritual parallels in my spiritual life.. I find that now as He's dealing with mindsets and showing us why we do what we do, life gets all the more interesting and amusing as He shows us how really dumb we can get in all our feeble attempts at spirituality..

Ok so anyway, i came into History class today not having done my readings (as usual).. the week before, the prof saw how the class was trying to smoke through the discussion without having done the readings.. so he gave all of us a gentle reminder how we need to actually read them cos the stuff coming out for the test will involve them.. and that week i happened to be sitting in front without even having printed them out, right in plain view of the professor.. needless to say, that remark was for me too...

Ok so i came into class today not having read them again.. but guess wad.. at least i printed them out...so that means, i can safely hide behind the paper when he asks questions about the readings, pretending that i have actually done them... hahaha

And it seems that the Holy Spirit Himself was amused and almost sniggering at my hypocrisy and how much it mimics my Christian walk.. i was hiding behind the readings, to save face in case the prof thinks that i actually didnt do them (and i didn't indeed)... i was doing it more for his sake, and saving my face.. not for my own sake so that actually i'll be prepared when the test comes, which was where the professor was really getting at...

And many times, we give God a form of religion and a form of Christianity but denying its power.. we come to church bearing that holy face trying all forms of spiritual and religious acrobatics to save our faces before God and before the congregation of the saints.. The real question is this: Do i really wanna stop sinning and doing things that displease God cos i wanna save my own face before Him (but deep down inside, my heart is far from Him)? Or do i wanna really let go of all this things that hinder my walk because God knows that its really for my own good? Am i just putting up an act of counterfeit spirituality before God and before men just to save face or is my heart really genuinely repentant? Knowing that God knows what is best and that obeying Him is really the best plan for our lives cos He really loves us so much...

when God shows you your own heart, it really is so laughable.. makes you wonder how He can stand having us as his own people and his ambassadors/representatives on earth.. we can't hide from Him.. He knows.

And so, God, make me real and true
Having a heart completely for You...