Open Heavens Conference

Been quite busy lately that i haven really been blogging.. and there are just so many things that i wanna blog about! Cos God has really been blessing me a lot and there's just so so much to tell of His goodness and love... He's been dealing with a lot of things in my life and showing me a lot of stuff even in Vacation Bible School and during the recent Open Heavens conference and He's been speaking and giving promises and i'm just enjoying it all.. so to start, i wanna talk about Open Heavens conference cos it's the "freshest" in my mind...

When i went for the opening night on friday, i was reeling from some kind of headache cos the night before i just didn't sleep properly and something i ate didn't quite agree with me.. i didn't feel so well throughout the day, even when i went for vacation Bible school in the morning.. and i recognised that that feeling was a spiritual attack.. cos we went into warfare during Gatekeepers the night before and that Friday, there were just a lot of things that God wanted to do in my life through those sessions that i was going to attend that the enemy wanted to hinder me from going... but all the more i went! in the morning, God already showed me i was healed and that i was to stand fast in that.. and so i did..

i carried that headache all the way to Katong in the evening.. i told God that i was still going for the conference no matter cos i wanted the impartation and no headache was gonna stop me.. i wanna encourage whoever's reading this to ask yourself.. how hungry are you for the anointing? i knew i had to be there no matter what the price... and it was all worth it.. the panadol i took thanks to my xiaomei helped me for a while but it kinda returned... but soon after worship started, the headache left completely! Praise the Lord!

So the presence of God came.. andrew was worship leading and my mind wasn't really focusing on God at first cos i was just observing and taking in the sights and sounds of it all.. like what song they were singing.. and how andrew seems to have gone another level in his worship-leading... but then the anointing hit me and God arrested me and very soon, i couldn't help but focus on Jesus... that was only during the first song!

Was just filled with so much love for Jesus and i was already crying during the first song! The songs andrew chose really spoke to me and awakened within me a greater passion to know Jesus.. it was like as if i was taken from my thoughts and in the next moment, worshipping God and saying how beautiful He is.. i was longing for Him as the Bridegroom King and inside of me, i was really feeling such strong desires that i knew i'll die without Him! I saw the angels come and clothe me with a white garment and put rings on my fingers... and it was just the first night! The speaker that night, Leslie Ann Leighton challenged me to just allow the Holy Spirit to take over and do what He wants to do in my life and for me not to limit Him...

Then i went with Jk to the morning session the next day... i had to wake up quite early to get to Katong and i didn't sleep much considering the fact that i reached home late the night before.. but i woke up with such an alertness.. even in my spirit.. i felt the presence of God with me that morning and there were songs in the spirit as i woke up... It was because of the favour of God that i could go for the morning sessions cos i didn't sign up at all! But during the week, Pastor Ban came and handed me two 'guest' passes cos he remembered that i told him i wanted to go.. and it was really a divine appointment.. the 'guest' passes enabled us to sit in front (cos the front area was reserved for guests only).. what a priviledge! It was only the favour and grace of God!

The morning sessions with Leslie Ann and Heidi Baker really spoke to me how i really needed to be dependent on the Holy Spirit and to yield to Him.. it's like i had enough running my life on my own and it's time for Him to take over... I had a realization of how i've been limiting Him and how He moves cos i restrict Him with my prayers and my mindsets.. but think about it.. if i yeild to Him more, how much more will He bring! God was really dealing with me!

The evening session at Expo was good! It was highly amusing when i was there by myself, trying to "prepare the way" by booking a row of 13 chairs for the bunch of us that went... and i unashamedly ransacked alvin's bag for a plethora of reading material which i used to "chope" the seats.. muahahaha... i was so glad that gideon and lele went and i was quite proud that the both of them and jaron went to pray for the ppl in front when Heidi Baker asked those under 16 to lay hands and pray for the sick.. i was so happy that they had the boldness to do it.. honestly, if it was me i really doubt that i would have gone up...

When i went up for the altar call that night, God began to deal with me.. i heard Him ask me something like "You really want this?" three times... then He told me that He had to heal my heart first and He mentioned a specific area in my life.. (and God brought immediate confirmation cos when i got up from the altar later, i checked my handphone and someone messaged me about that same area)... He was showing me how He needed to deal with the apathy and the coldness in my heart so that i can administer that to others too and so that i can stand in intercession for my generation.. i saw His fire go through my body and i received an impartation from Him that night...

The last night of the conference ended with a blast! During the worship, the Lord showed me 12 loaves of bread and i asked Him what that was and He told me that those were the bread of the nations... And guess what.. Heidi preached about bread that night, about how Jesus is the Bread of Life in relation to missions and evangelism... The Lord was showing me more about His call upon me.. Heidi gave a call to those were called to full time missions and i responded... we were supposed to kneel down on the stage.. as i stepped onto the stage, i was shaking inside my spirit.. deep down inside i knew the seriousness of the call and the price that is required even as Heidi was reinforcing it through the microphone...

when someone prayed for me, i fell backwards into this awkward position cos my knees were still "kneeling" but my upper body was down backwards.. and i couldn't bring my legs out cos i didn't wanna kick anyone cos there was no space.. and then later i heard Heidi say into the microphone something like "help his legs!" and when i opened my eyes to look, there she was referring to me! :P i quickly brought my legs into a sitting position instead...

but anyway, i felt the fire go through my body even as i saw it coming down.. i was shaking violently receiving the impartation.. Heidi later laid hands on my heart as they were imparting the "fire of love" and i knew i received something.. i felt that there was still the touch of God there even after she had removed her hands.. the Holy Spirit also spoke to me and gave me a promise... I had to get up early the next day cos school started at 8 and i had to get to clementi by then.. but i was glad i still went for the night session nonetheless! I'm really thankful to God for really blessing me these past few days!

No regrets! :D