Who am I

Who am I

Who am i that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am i that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
In my ever-wandering heart

Not because of who i am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what i've done
But because of who You are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You hear me when i'm calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
And You told me who i am
i am Yours...

Who am i that the eys that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am i that the voice that calmed the sea
And called out through the rain
Would calm the storm in me

Just celebrated my 21st birthday recently and that means 21 years of God's unfailing love and faithfulnes upon my life. Through all those times even that i haven't been faithful to Him, He is still faithful for He cannot deny Himself... That's just how great His love is! (Thanks to all those ppl who sent me wishes, got me the mooncake and treated me to lunch.. :P)

Anyway just wanna talk about certain things that God has been teaching me lately... One is that I'm glad God does not receive us on our own terms but on His terms. Sometimes, even when we fail Him, He is still faithful and if we repent, we can come back to Him and experience His grace. If He were to receive us on our terms, we will come to Him being too hard on ourselves, trying to pay off our guilt and trying to put a price on His grace which is so precious that it's priceless. How many times have we come to Him expecting Him to do something or to meet us just because we practice the right spiritual disciplines, pray five hours a day, memorise twenty chapters a week, etc... But that's not the basis that He's gonna meet us.. He's gonna meet us cos Jesus has paved the way with His blood. Period. It's settled. I like how Edmund Chua puts it... many times our appeals in prayer are more consumed in the righteousness of the person in question rather than on the gace of God, rather than who He is. It's such a priviledge to come to Him, knowing who He is and praying it out. It takes the focus off ourselves and our own situations and brings us to where God is, to a revelation of His Person, his love and unfailing mercies...

One of the truths that I learned recently regarding communion is that when we do it in remembrance of Jesus, it does something to our faith too and adds to our knowledge of who we are in Him. Here's how it works: Our identity is tied to who He is cos He finds expression in us and it is the Father's will to conform us to His likeness. Therefore, when we remember Him, we remember who we truly are and what we are made for. And remembering that changes us.. it shows us ourselves in the light of who He is and as we see who we are in Him and who we can be, who He calls us to be, we are changed.. our future calls out to us... our faith rises up and we take our focus off our limitations and see what we can do because God is able to do it through us. As we celebrate Christ and remember Him as the One victorious ruler who died on the cross and rose again and is seated at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven, as we look to Him in drinking our cup and eating our bread, we remember ourselves, as more than conquerors is Him.. as those seated with Him in heavenly places.. as the ones to whom He has issued a call, an invitation to be His Bride, being one with Him.. Him in us and us in Him... Jesus raising His cup inviting us to drink from it is symbollic of His wedding invitation... It's a priviledged position cos He's elevating us... So as much as we remember Him during communion, we also remember who we are in Him and we celebrate that too... It's more than just symbollic... As faith is a real substance (Heb 11:1), the faith that rises in us as we hear and remember his call to intimacy is also real. And so is the pursuit that manifests in good works for the Kingdom that would glorify both our Father and Bridegroom.

The Lord has also been teaching me that the way to having grace and truth, the very substance that Jesus carried upon the earth that changed the places and people that He encountered, was through humility... God was showing me that there can be no John 1 without Philippians 2. I believe that many of us are going through a season where God is humbling us, where He is teaching us humility.. but humility is not an end in itself cos He's fashioning His vessels to carry grace and truth, to carry His very substance that would change planet earth! So take heart that the pruning process is only for a season.. cos the Lord is preparing us for a revolution!

God bless! :)