A Greater Understanding

Now I have...

A greater understanding of the relevance of the "dark night of the soul"; the words were upon my spirit as i entered this season...

A greater understanding of the virtues of "myrrh and aloes" as the Lord impressed them upon me during leader's retreat...

A greater understanding of what it means when the Lord impressed upon me that He would give me the treasures of darkness, the riches stored in secret places (Isa 45:3)...

A greater understanding of the call to bridalhood, knowing that the process is part of the call...

A greater understanding that God won't leave me alone, even as He interrupted my thoughts yesterday using my GEM 1008 teacher and bringing her words to life; i found God on them... and she probably doesn't even know that God used her words to interject into my life with a little of His light...

A greater undertsanding of what it means to be in Christ; the difference of being in myself and in Him... in Him, i'm a new creation... in Him, i'm invincible and impervious to whatever satan throws at me... that's what it means to abide in Him.. what i focus upon, i empower...

A greater understanding of how easy it is to draw closer to God.. cos that's His desire and intention in the first place, to draw near to us... we complicate it too much... and we miss it sometimes cos we don't believe in it...

A geater understanding of how important it is to enjoy God; i can serve Him in ministry and may even be successful while i'm at it but the experience would not be complete if i don't enjoy Him in the process... loving Him means enjoying Him... even as i know that he enjoys me past my failings cos He looks at the thoughts and intents of my heart...

In prayer meeting today, there was just a sweet presence of God and i thank the Holy Spirit for coming down...

Having said all that, i love this dark night.. i won't trade it for anything unless until God leads me out of it, knowing that the process is complete.. :)

pressed but not crushed
persecuted not abandoned
struck down but not destroyed...